There isn't a name for my situation. Firstly because I decided to kill myself. And then because of this idea: I don't have to do it immediately. Whoosh, through a little door. It's a limbo. I need never answer the phone again or pay a bill. My credit score no longer matters. Fears and compulsions don't matter. Socks don't matter. Because I'll be dead. And who am I to die? A microwave chef. A writer of pamphlets. A product of our time. A failed student. A faulty man. A bad poet. An activist in two minds. A drinker of chocolate milk, and when there's no chocolate, of strawberry and sometimes banana.
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