It's a sort of furtiveness ... Like we were a generation of furtive. You know, with an inner knowledge there's no use flaunting on that level, the level of the 'public', a kind of beatness "" I mean, being right down to it, to ourselves, because we all really know where we are "" and a weariness with all the forms, all the conventions of the world ... It's something like that. So I guess you might say we're a beat generation.
And what does the rain say at night in a small town, what does the rain have to say? Who walks beneath dripping melancholy branches listening to the rain? Who is there in the rain's million-needled blurring splash, listening to the grave music of the rain at night, September rain, September rain, so dark and soft? Who is there listening to steady level roaring rain all around, brooding and listening and waiting, in the rain-washed, rain-twinkled dark of night?
rain quotesnight quotessmall quotestown quoteswalks quotesbeneath quotesdripping quotesmelancholy quotesbranches quoteslistening quotesrain quotesrains quotesmillionneedled quotesblurring quotessplash quotesgrave quotesmusic quotesnight quotesseptember quotesrain quotesdark quotessoft quotessteady quoteslevel quotesroaring quotesbrooding quoteswaiting quotesrainwashed quotesraintwinkled quotesnight quotes
You don't realize what a strain it is on the nerves to write or think-of-writing all day long, and to sleep full of nervous dreams, and to wake up not knowing who one is: this all stems from anxiety about finishing the book, about time 'growing short', etc., and the perpetual strain of invention.
In those days he really didn't know what he was talking about; that is to say, he was a young jailkid all hung-up on the wonderful possibilities of becoming a real intellectual, and he liked to talk in the tone and using the words, but in a jumbled way, that he had heard from 'real intellectuals.
Then it's goodbye, Sangsara for me Besides, girls aren't as good as they look And Samadhi is better than you think When it starts in hitting your head In with Buzz of glittergold Heaven's Angels, wailing, saying We've been waiting for you since morning, Jack Why were you so long dallying in the sooty room? This transcendental Brilliance Is the better part (of Nothingness I sing) Okay. Quit. Mad. Stop.
goodbye quotessangsara quotesgirls quotesgood quotessamadhi quotesstarts quoteshitting quoteshead quotesbuzz quotesglittergold quotesheavens quotesangels quoteswailing quoteswaiting quotesmorning quotesjack quoteslong quotesdallying quotessooty quotesroom quotestranscendental quotesbrilliance quotespart quotesnothingness quotessing quotesquit quotesmad quotesstop quotes
And just for a moment I had reached the point of ecstasy that I always wanted to reach, which was the complete step across chronological time into timeless shadows, and wonderment in the bleakness of the mortal realm, and the sensation of death kicking at my heels to move on, wiht a phantom dogging its own heels, and myself hurrying to a plank where all the angels dove off and flew into the holy void of uncreated emptiness, the potent and inconceivable radiancies shining in bright Mind Essence, innumerable lotus-lands falling open in the magic mothswarm of heaven. - Sal Paradise
moment quotesreached quotespoint quotesecstasy quoteswanted quotesreach quotescomplete quotesstep quoteschronological quotestime quotestimeless quotesshadows quoteswonderment quotesbleakness quotesmortal quotesrealm quotessensation quotesdeath quoteskicking quotesheels quotesmove quoteswiht quotesphantom quotesdogging quotesheels quoteshurrying quotesplank quotesangels quotesdove quotesflew quotesholy quotesvoid quotesuncreated quotesemptiness quotespotent quotesinconceivable quotesradiancies quotesshining quotesbright quotesmind quotesessence quotesinnumerable quoteslotuslands quotesfalling quotesopen quotesmagic quotesmothswarm quotesheaven quotessal quotesparadise quotes
The world you see is just a movie in your mind.Rocks dont see it.Bless and sit down.Forgive and forget.Practice kindness all day to everybodyand you will realize you're alreadyin heaven now.That's the story.That's the message.Nobody understands it,nobody listens, they'reall running around like chickens with heads cutoff. I will try to teach it but it willbe in vain, s'why I'llend up in a shackpraying and beingcool and singingby my woodstovemaking pancakes.
world quotesmovie quotesmindrocks quotesdont quotesitbless quotessit quotesdownforgive quotesforgetpractice quoteskindness quotesday quoteseverybodyand quotesrealize quotesalreadyin quotesheaven quotesnowthats quotesstorythats quotesmessagenobody quotesunderstands quotesitnobody quoteslistens quotestheyreall quotesrunning quoteschickens quotesheads quotescutoff quotesteach quoteswillbe quotesvain quotesswhy quotesillend quotesshackpraying quotesbeingcool quotessingingby quoteswoodstovemaking quotespancakes quotes
Never dreaming, was I, poor Jack Duluoz, that the soul is dead. That from Heaven grace descends . . . No Doctor Pisspot Poorpail to tell me; no example inside my first and only skin. That love is the heritage, and cousin to death. That the only love can only be the first love, the only death the last, the only life within, and the only word . . . choked forever.
dreaming quotespoor quotesjack quotesduluoz quotessoul quotesdead quotesheaven quotesgrace quotesdescends quotesdoctor quotespisspot quotespoorpail quotesinside quotesskin quoteslove quotesheritage quotescousin quotesdeath quoteslove quotesdeath quoteslife quotesword quoteschoked quotesforever quotes
You have absolutely no regard but yourself and your damned kicks. All you think about is what's hanging between your legs and how much money or fun you can get out of people and then you just throw them aside. Not only that but you're silly about it. It never occurs to you that life is serious and that there are people trying to make something decent out of it instead of just goofing all the time.
But they need to worry and betray time with urgencies false and otherwise, purely anxious and whiny, their souls really won't be at peace unless they can latch to an established and proven worry and having once found it they assume facial expressions to fit and go with it, which is, you see, unhappiness, and all the time it all flies by them and they know it and that too worries them no end.
The earth will always be the same - only cities and history will change, even nations will change, governments and governors will go, the things made by men's hands will go, buildings will always crumble - only the earth will remain the same, there will always be men on the earth in the morning, there will always be the things made by God's hands - and all this history of cities and congress now will go, all modern history is only a littering Babylon smoking under the sun, delaying the day when men again will have to return to earth, to the earth of life and God -
earth quotescities quoteshistory quoteschange quotesnations quotesgovernments quotesgovernors quotesthings quotesmade quotesmens quoteshands quotesbuildings quotescrumble quotesremain quotesmen quotesmorning quotesgods quotescongress quotesmodern quoteslittering quotesbabylon quotessmoking quotessun quotesdelaying quotesday quotesreturn quotesearth quoteslife quotesgod quotes
I sit down and say, and I run all my friends and relatives and enemies one by one in this, without entertaining any angers or gratitudes or anything, and I say, like 'Japhy Ryder, equally empty, equally to be loved, equally a coming Buddha, ' then I run on, say to 'David O. Selznick, equally empty, equally to be loved, equally a coming Buddha' though I don't use names like David O. Selznick, just people I know because when I say the words 'equally a coming Buddha' I want to be thinking of their eyes, like you take Morley, his blue eyes behind those glasses, when you think 'equally a coming Buddha' you think of those eyes and you really do suddenly see the true secret serenity and the truth of his coming Buddhahood. Then you think of your enemy's eyes.
sit quotesrun quotesfriends quotesrelatives quotesenemies quotesentertaining quotesangers quotesgratitudes quotesjaphy quotesryder quotesequally quotesempty quotesloved quotescoming quotesbuddha quotes quotesdavid quoteso quotesselznick quotesbuddha quotesnames quotesdavid quotespeople quoteswords quotesequally quotesthinking quoteseyes quotesmorley quotesblue quoteseyes quotesglasses quotessuddenly quotestrue quotessecret quotesserenity quotestruth quotesbuddhahood quotesenemys quoteseyes quotes
I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn't know who I was - I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn't scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost.
woke quotessun quotesreddening quotesdistinct quotestime quoteslife quotesstrangest quotesmoment quoteshome quoteshaunted quotestired quotestravel quotescheap quoteshotel quotesroom quoteshearing quoteshiss quotessteam quotescreak quoteswood quoteshotel quotesfootsteps quotesupstairs quotessad quotessounds quoteslooked quotescracked quoteshigh quotesceiling quotesfifteen quotesstrange quotesseconds quotesscared quotesstranger quoteslife quotesghost quotes
He had become completely mad in his movements; He seemed to be doing everything at the same time. It was a shaking of the head, up and down, sideways; jerky, vigorous hands; quick walking, sitting, crossing the legs, uncrossing, getting up, rubbing the hands, rubbing his fly, hitching his pants, looking up and saying 'Am, ' and sudden slitting of the eyes to see everywhere; and all the time he was grabbing me by the ribs and talking, talking
completely quotesmad quotesmovements quotestime quotesshaking quoteshead quotessideways quotesjerky quotesvigorous quoteshands quotesquick quoteswalking quotessitting quotescrossing quoteslegs quotesuncrossing quotesrubbing quoteshands quotesfly quoteshitching quotespants quotesam quotes quotessudden quotesslitting quoteseyes quotestime quotesgrabbing quotesribs quotestalking quotestalking quotes
I know everything's alright but I want proof and the Buddhas and the Virgin Marys are there reminding me of the solemn pledge of faith in this harsh and stupid earth where we rage our so-called lives in a sea of worry, meat for Chicagos of Graves - right this minute my very father and my very brother lie side by side in mud in the North and I'm supposed to be smarter than they are - being quick I am dead.
everythings quotesalright quotesproof quotesbuddhas quotesvirgin quotesmarys quotesreminding quotessolemn quotespledge quotesfaith quotesharsh quotesstupid quotesearth quotesrage quotessocalled quoteslives quotessea quotesworry quotesmeat quoteschicagos quotesgraves quotesminute quotesfather quotesbrother quoteslie quotesside quotesmud quotesnorth quotessupposed quotessmarter quotesquick quotesdead quotes
I fear mostly my inability to capture all the things that come, I fear their mysterious source, I fear their fate, I fear me, in short. This is true... it's like finding a river of gold when you haven't even got a cup to save a cupful... you've but a thimble, and that thimble is your pathetic brain and labour and humanness.
It seemed like a matter of minutes when we began rolling in the foothills before Oakland and suddenly reached a height and saw stretched out ahead of us the fabulous white city of San Francisco on her eleven mystic hills with the blue Pacific and its advancing wall of potato-patch fog beyond, and smoke and goldenness in the late afternoon of time.
matter quotesminutes quotesbegan quotesrolling quotesfoothills quotesoakland quotessuddenly quotesreached quotesheight quotesstretched quotesahead quotesfabulous quoteswhite quotescity quotessan quotesfrancisco quoteseleven quotesmystic quoteshills quotesblue quotespacific quotesadvancing quoteswall quotespotatopatch quotesfog quotessmoke quotesgoldenness quoteslate quotesafternoon quotestime quotes
Let me sing the beauty of my Maggie. Legs:-the knees attached to the thighs, knees shiny, thighs like milk. Arms:-the levers of my content, the serpents of my joy. Back:-the sight of that in a strange street of dreams in the middle of Heaven would make me fall sitting from glad recognition. Ribs?-she had some melted and round like a well formed apple, from her thigh bones to waist I saw the earth roll. In her neck I hid myself like a lost snow goose of Australia, seeking the perfume of her breast... She didn't let me, she was a good girl. The poor big alley cat, though almost a year younger, had black ideas about her legs that he hid from himself, also in his prayers didn't mention... the dog. Across the big world darkness I've come, in boat, in bus, in airplane, in train standing my shadow immense traversing the fields and the redness of engine boilers behind me making me omnipotent upon the earth of the night, like God-but I have never made love with a little finger that has won me since. I gnawed her face with my eyes; she loved that; and that was bastardly I didn't know she loved me-I didn't understand.
sing quotesbeauty quotesmaggie quoteslegsthe quotesknees quotesattached quotesthighs quotesshiny quotesthighs quotesmilk quotesarmsthe quoteslevers quotescontent quotesserpents quotesjoy quotesbackthe quotessight quotesstrange quotesstreet quotesdreams quotesmiddle quotesheaven quotesmake quotesfall quotessitting quotesglad quotesrecognition quotesribsshe quotesmelted quotesround quotesformed quotesapple quotesthigh quotesbones quoteswaist quotesearth quotesroll quotesneck quoteshid quoteslost quotessnow quotesgoose quotesaustralia quotesseeking quotesperfume quotesbreast quotesgood quotesgirl quotespoor quotesbig quotesalley quotescat quotesyear quotesyounger quotesblack quotesideas quoteslegs quotesprayers quotesmention quotesdog quotesworld quotesdarkness quotesboat quotesbus quotesairplane quotestrain quotesstanding quotesshadow quotesimmense quotestraversing quotesfields quotesredness quotesengine quotesboilers quotesmaking quotesomnipotent quotesnight quotesgodbut quotesmade quoteslove quotesfinger quoteswon quotesgnawed quotesface quoteseyes quotesloved quotesbastardly quotesmei quotesunderstand quotes
They understand death, they stand there in the church under the skies that have a beginningless past and go into the never-ending future, waiting themselves for death, at the foot of the dead, in a holy temple. - I get a vision of myself and the two little boys hung up in a great endless universe with nothing overhead and nothing under bbut the Infinite Nothingness, the Enormousness of it, the dead without number in all directions of existence whether inward into the atom-worlds of your own body or outward to the universe which may only be one atom in an infinity of atom-worlds and each atom-world only a figure of speech - inward, outward, up and down, nothing but emptiness and divine majesty and silence for the two little boys and me.
understand quotesdeath quotesstand quoteschurch quotesskies quotesbeginningless quotespast quotesneverending quotesfuture quoteswaiting quotesfoot quotesdead quotesholy quotestemple quotesvision quotesboys quoteshung quotesgreat quotesendless quotesuniverse quotesoverhead quotesbbut quotesinfinite quotesnothingness quotesenormousness quotesdead quotesnumber quotesdirections quotesexistence quotesatomworlds quotesbody quotesoutward quotesatom quotesinfinity quotesatomworld quotesfigure quotesspeech quotesoutward quotesemptiness quotesdivine quotesmajesty quotessilence quotes
All I wanted and all Neal wanted and all anybody wanted was some kind of penetration into the heart of things where, like in a womb, we could curl up and sleep the ecstatic sleep that Burroughs was experiencing with a good big mainline shot of M. and advertising executives in NY were experiencing with twelve Scotch and Sodas in Stouffers before they made the drunkard's train to Westchester-but without hangovers.
wanted quotesneal quoteskind quotespenetration quotesheart quotesthings quoteswomb quotescurl quotessleep quotesecstatic quotesburroughs quotesexperiencing quotesgood quotesbig quotesmainline quotesshot quotesm quotesadvertising quotesexecutives quotesny quotestwelve quotesscotch quotessodas quotesstouffers quotesmade quotesdrunkards quotestrain quoteswestchesterbut quoteshangovers quotes
the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.