There's something advantageous about having people underestimate your intellect, insomuch as a lot of things are revealed to you. They assume you don't know what you're talking about, then all of a sudden, you do. And the next thing you know, you have information you wouldn't normally have.
Look how fears have presented themselves, so have supports and encouragements; yea, when I have started, even as it were at nothing else but my shadow, yet God, as being very tender of me, hath suffered me to be molested, but would with one Scripture or another, strengthen me against all; insomuch that I have often said, Were it awful, I could pray for greater trouble, for the greater comfort's sake.
About three in the morning as we were continuing instant in prayer, the power of God came mightily upon us, insomuch that many cried out for exceeding joy, and many fell to the ground. As soon as we recovered a little from the awe and amazement at the presence of His Majesty, we broke out with one voice, 'We praise Thee, O God, we acknowledge Thee to be the Lord.'
But by far the greatest hindrance and aberration of the human understanding proceeds from the dullness, incompetency, and deceptions of the senses; in that things which strike the sense outweigh things which do not immediately strike it, though they be more important. Hence it is that speculation commonly ceases where sight ceases; insomuch that of things invisible there is little or no observation.
The registering of doubts hath two excellent uses: the one, that it saveth philosophy from errors and falsehoods; when that which is not fully appearing is not collected into assertion, whereby error might draw error, but reserved in doubt: the other, that the entry of doubts are as so many suckers or sponges to draw use of knowledge; insomuch as that which, if doubts had not preceded, a man should never have advised, but passed it over without note, by the suggestion and solicitation of doubts, is made to be attended and applied.
Pessimists are just as illogical as optimists; insomuch as both envisage the aims of mankind as unified, and as having a direct relationship (either of frustration or of fulfilment) to the inevitable flow of terrestrial motivation and events. That is--both schools retain in a vestigial way the primitive concept of a conscious teleology--of a cosmos which gives a damn one way or the other about the especial wants and ultimate welfare of mosquitos, rats, lice, dogs, men, horses, pterodactyls, trees, fungi, dodos, or other forms of biological energy.
H. P. Lovecraft
NOT THE MASTER IN YOUR OWN HOME TOWN Matthew 13 AND WHEN HE WAS COME INTO HIS OWN COUNTRY, HE TAUGHT THEM IN THEIR SYNAGOGUE, INSOMUCH THAT THEY WERE ASTONISHED AND SAID, WHENCE HATH THIS MAN THIS WISDOM AND THESE MIGHTY WORKS? IS NOT THIS THE CARPENTER'S SON? IS NOT HIS MOTHER CALLED MARY? AND HIS BRETHREN, AND HIS SISTERS, ARE THEY NOT ALL WITH US? WHENCE THEN HATH THIS MAN ALL THESE THINGS? AND THEY WERE OFFENDED IN HIM. People were not so offended with Buddha or Lao Tzu as people were offended with Jesus. With Buddha, he is so far away that you either do not understand him, or people could understand that he was the essence of the Upanishads. With Jesus, people were offended, because he was just like them. They could not understand him. The said: "We know him! Isn't he the carpenter's son!". Buddha was also the son of a king, while Jesus was a carpenter's son. People could not understand. From where comes his wisdom? They were offended, their ego was offended. BUT JESUS SAID TO THEM, A PROPHET IS NOT WITHOUT HONOUR, SAVE IN HIS OWN COUNTRY, AND IN HIS OWN HOUSE. It has happened so many times that the people who are closest will always misunderstand. We could expect the contrary, that the people of Jesus village would understand him first. The people of Jesu's house, his family, his relatives, would understand him first. But that does not happen. A deep insight into the human ego is needed to understand it. With those that are closest to you, it is very difficult to believe that they had gone beyond and above you. If somebody else, who is not close to you, goes beyond you, the competetive ego does not arise. But if your brother goes, and you are left behind, your ego is hurt. You feel defeated, a failure. Then the easiest way is to deny that he has gone beyond. Jesus offended his own village, family and relatives. They knew Jesus' birth date, they knew his father, his mother, his brothers and sisters. So Jesus can not be forgive. Jesus is a quality of love, but to be able to see this quality, you have to drop your ego. The presence, the quality of Jesus offends, because you will feel that you have failed. His very being, his presence, offends you. With Jesus there are two qualities: either you follow him or you deny him, you become an enemy. When Jesus was crucified, many felt a great relief. Very rare people could follow Jesus, because they were ready to drop their egos. And even those that followed Jesus, hesitated and had doubts, before they could say yes, before they can trust. Jesus is a total yes to life, a total trust in life.
Swami Dhyan Giten